I don't know if im wrong for saying this but here it goes.
Tonight my boyfriend asked me if we could smoke again, after I already told him us smoking that one time a few weeks ago was A ONE TIME THING, OR A "SPECIAL OCCASION" THING.
I knew he was going to start up again with this shit. And yet, I can't stand up for myself and say no because I just want to make him happy and I want to be a good girlfriend.
But, he knows I don't like pot, which is his choice of drug. Now on the other hand, pills are my choice of drug, which he hates. How would he feel if I asked him if he could take some pills with me and get high? He wouldn't take me seriouslly and then he would probably call me a bitch for even saying something like that. Its not fare the way im seeing it, and even though some of you may say "well pot isnt as bad as pills" WRONG. pills can fuck up your stomach over time. And pot can fuck up your lungs over time. What the fuck. They are both drugs. They can both be used for pain, or for the high, or even for both the pain and the high in my case with pills. But anyway, we went out and rented a xbox360 game for tonight and got the pot. Which, I can't say Im soo angry about having to smoke it, im just a little upset that he knows I don't like it and he has the nerve to still go ahead and ask me, after I let him know ten times before this that that one last time was really the one last time. whatever. fuck people who only think of themselves. which is not my boyfriend at all, but in this case, im starting to think of him like that and im really getting pissed. at least we had great sex earlier...
yea so nothing else is really going on other than hopefully these people call us tomorrow so i can go pick up my ring! at least im excited about something. i spent the day today hanging with my little sister and mother. Then I got back home with my baby, we had great time together LOL...and we also drew penises on eachothers backs (god we are wierd)
Oh, and not to mention the beautiful face he drew on my tummy..
and YES, I am fully aware that my bellybutton is a line ;]
now back to eating candy and rolling a blunt.
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I would say to him not to mention it near you and if he wants to do it, then maybe go away and do it.
ReplyDeleteIt's like offering alcoho to an alcoholic.
My hubby was a heavy user of weed and i hate it for that very reason. The shit i put up with when he didnt have it...the moods, the broken walls. Drugs are not nice fullstop and it has definately had an affect on him now. He doesn't do it now coz he knows ill leave but its fried his brain.