Ava, if there is a heaven.. I know thats where you are.

im not comforatable being lonely
cause now i see what lys beneath your tits.
you were "my type of girl",
not his..
i kissed your neck and giggled.
you never spoke a word, just smiled.
i never pasued with my actions,
i wanted to seize the moment.
i wanted you underneath me
i wanted to love you like he did
i needed to love you like he did.
you took my hand and showed it smooth
you kissed my lips and showed me smooth
you never once met your eyes too mine,
but i still know what they were saying.
"take me. take me the way he takes me."
my mind so cluttered, my hands they trembled.
i climbed onto you,
and we took off what was left on our innocent bodies.
i could feel your heart racing,
i could hear your breathing heavy as i shook.
i knew what i was here for.
you knew what you were here for.
young girls only want to defeat that
strong hold over their hearts.
looking for a cure,
longing for that "one".
drinks in our hands, we touch on the sand.
to him you lied,
but you were still satistfied that night.
so was cheating really worth it, ava?
young and restless..
what else did he expect from a troubled drunk girl.
what else did i expect from a good fuck..

love.